Many of us may have heard the expression, “Life is an adventure” but how many of us actually live the sentiment behind that expression? Some of us may think that it means that some days are more exciting than others or that occasionally something good happens to us, i.e. we win the lottery, we find our one true love, and so on. I, for one, am not the type of person who thinks in those terms. I usually just “go with the flow” and “hope for the best.”
This attitude stems, in part, from an emotionally abusive father and an apathetic mother. I was always a reader, mostly of Greek mythology, but my father, who grew up in the 1930s and 1940s, thought that I should learn how to do “manly” things like pitch a ball around or want to go fishing and like camping. He even insisted that I go through an Outward Bound course (for those who do not know what this is, it is similar to boot camp for pre-teens and teens). I would finally give into his “demands” just to keep the peace. Now that I am older, I see that my attitude was probably selfish and that my father was trying to bond with his only son in ways that his father may not have. I can not say for sure since I never met my grandfather and my father never talked about him.
This attitude caused me to become an introvert and I never had any friends. The only people that I interacted with were my sisters and cousins. Since we tended to move around every few years, I was probably afraid to make friends thinking that I would lose them and have to go through the whole process again and again. In that way, I just gave up.
Recently I have begun to see Life more as an adventure–neither good nor bad–but as a way to change my attitude towards myself and others. This has been in large part due to meeting Remmy and Paul. Although we have never met in person, there are times that I can imagine us somewhere talking about writing, films, and joking together. I have begun to be more open with others and not as afraid as I use to be. I consider myself lucky to have met them and hope that their view on Life as an adventure becomes a major part of my outlook.