Being a boy is not easy. You want to trust everyone and of course everyone wants to take advantage of that trust. You get used and abused when no one really liked you in the first place. You just had something they wanted. It may take several of these interactions before you get the idea. It took until 2015 for me to understand that.

When I was probably nine or so mom gave me money for the ice cream truck. Since we lived in a hotel the truck came to about two blocks away. I ran down the street in the middle of the hot summer to get my ice cream.

A girl my age was there and fed my ego,”Gosh you are so cute, I was waiting to see the ice cream truck, so I could dream about having ice cream.” okay she had my attention, “You look so tanned you have a lot of girlfriends?”

No doubt she became a con artist ripping out boys hearts the rest of her life. I gave her my money. Watched her buy the ice cream, and without her saying thank you she skipped off never to be seen again by me at least.

I thought about the cute girl for several days, then realized finally that I had been ripped off, due to my own fault. After that when a girl, or even guy, would give me a compliment I had to wonder what they wanted, but usually I fell victim to another con artist because my ego and heart just could not think of someone being as cruel as people were.

They say the world is worse than it has ever been. I even heard one woman say today’s kids are being born without souls. True or not, I could never say. It is not like I have a calling for something like that. Yet in the back of my mind, I still wonder if anyone could ever love me for being me…



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6 Thoughts on “Boys and Ice Cream

  1. pauly10 on February 13, 2016 at 4:01 pm said:

    You have to watch everybody, but the older you get the smarter you get and hopefully one day we can work out those who take advantage 🙂

  2. Mel Leach on February 13, 2016 at 4:46 pm said:

    Well, I’m old enough to be your mother, but I love you for just being you. And I would never steal your ice cream money, because trust… and ice cream… are sacred.

    Don’t ever let another girl steal your ice cream money. It’s 2016, women are emancipated. Any girl worth her salt will buy you an ice cream because you are an intelligent and talented young man. And BTW… Changes is gonna be awesome.

  3. <3 You shine bright as you are. 🙂

  4. You have to risk being hurt to find what you want.

  5. Remmy, I firmly believe there is someone for everyone. Someday, somewhere you will find yours and it will be amazing.

  6. Steven Fritchie on February 15, 2016 at 10:13 am said:

    First, let me address the childhood theft. This little girl was apparently brought up in a household where she was never disciplined. She has probably grown up to believe that her looks and/or personality will get her far in life. People like that are not worth knowing because they are users.

    Now, since we are both victims of verbal abuse, our childhood experiences have crippled us with feelings that “we can’t do anything right/ we are unworthy of love/ we’ll never amount to anything”. How we deal with abuse can vary. I admit that I dealt badly with it because I am an introvert and have difficulty opening up to people. I never had any childhood friends.

    From everything that you have told me about yourself, and correct me if I am wrong, your family’s nudist way of life gives you a sense of freedom and openness. This is not a bad thing in of itself, but it may have caused you to believe that other people were not evil.

    Your stories are your way of proving that you ARE worthy of admiration and love. Your dislike of foul language is your attempt to maintain your innocence. That is not a bad thing, but, unfortunately, the world has changed and innocence is usually abused or mocked. This may be why some people misunderstand your writings. While you are writing about childrens’ innocence, and nudity being a manifestation of that, the majority of people are not use to it. Unfortunately, and this may be trite, but the media is one of the main culprits in this change of attitude. Nudity is equated with sex and when sex is invoked, people’s minds go into the gutter. You should be proud of yourself because you have overcome your disabilities, both physical and mental. If the verbal abuse that you endured had won, do you think that you would still be alive? No. You fought and won! That is something to be proud of.

    As for your question about whether you will ever be loved or not, who knows? All that I can say, as far as I am concerned, is that I love you very much (even when you get on my case). I do NOT mean that in any sort of sexual way, since you are straight. I mean I can overlook that flaw. 😉 You are always in my prayers and I would love to meet you in person. You are stronger than you think you are and worthy of love. I hope that this was helpful. You are loved for who you are, not for the illusions in people’s small minds. I’m sending you hugs & a kiss on your cheek (don’t want people to get the wrong idea…pfft!). I’ll talk to you soon.

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